Change in me

I fed up with myself.
Why most of the time talking on the phone with you also cry?
Why I don't have any happy thing in life to share with you?
Why do I have to make you worry about me all the time?
Why do I have to bother & think so much on stupid thing/people?
Why do I have to make decision when I can't?
Why am I always being bullied?
Why I have no luck?

NO! I want to change, change for good!
NO more these from this second onwards...